I love to sleep. mug. burp. sunnysides. orange daisies. watersports. shopping. playing the piano. snacking. chocolates. MALTESERS. COLDROCK ICECREAM. picnics. movies, gore. reading novels, books. phonejamming. hanging out with my buddies. slumber parties. singing with my friends till we get out of tune. chills & chats till daybreak.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

Adina Amanda Amethyst Belicia Chenchen Daesiree Debbie Estherchong Esthergoh Estherlee Fionachia Fionalim Gladys Hsien Tze Iris Jonathan Jono Kennethleow Kohwei Kumyong Liyan Lovelle Luwei Marvin MichelleBay Munkidd Nicholas Ningyi Nissi Light Olivia Rachel Serena Shannon Shuyi Siewmay Sylvia Tommy Xiangliang Yijun Yining Yuhong Yunmei Zhimin

Every Little Thing - Dishwalla

These are one of those nights when you are all alone, no phonecalls, no dates, no parties. It feels pretty hollow within. And when you needed some sort of answers, it feels as if the whole world is avoiding you. It makes you wonder wtheck am I home when people are having a whole load of fun out there. Though it's just this one night that you're home, it feels damn shitty. It sucks to feel awake in the middle of the night when you know maybe you can get some fun out there.
F, why am I so angsty. Maybe waikit is right about me having a disease.

The consequences that came along with all the fun are far more deadly than anything else. Yet, I chose those fun nights because sometimes, the thirst of my heart is more torturing than anything else. ****************

BACK TO SQUARE ONE.

I'm back from UK, and obviously I'm suffering from jetlag looking from this unearthly hour that I'm still online. UK's great. The places are beautiful, so are the people. It feels really relax, and I could just gaze my eyes upon the beauty of the mountains and streets. Pictures are soon to be out when my friends upload them.
And joehann dan, you suck, I tried contacting you at UK, you didn't pick up your call. I was thrilled to see you, you totally broke my heart. :( Thank god you are coming back later in the month, Imy soo much.

As I returned, my heart sank. You're back to reality girl, I told myself. All the troubles that I cast away and left behind in Spore, crept into my heart the moment I'm back home. England feels like a dream. I didn't have to worry about life, family, boys, school, etc. Coming back feels as if I've got a whole load of shit waiting for me to overcome. When I shut my eyes, I could sense the pressure and tension overwhelming my being. And I knew 2010 would be another year of shit. It feels like a thunderstorm about to arrive, along with a choppy sea. It really feels damn crappy.

Resolution, I wanna be capable of kissing my scars away.
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To: boy #1
Hey sweetheart, everything halt. Yet, the fondness grows greater and greater each day. Imy, everyday. It's tough to get by, cause it's everything without you. But life moves on no matter how much desire there is for the past. The tension seems to grow between the both of us. It makes me wonder if you're my boy. But I can't deny that there was once a time when you had my heart fully to yourself. When you decided that you throw away half of it, you change my perspective, you change my heart. Crude to say, you can't blame me for what I've become, cause it started all from you. Ily more than you ever realised. You never see things deep enough, yet many times, the heartfelt truths are all buried deep down in the heart.

To: boy #2
Hey honey, maybe you aren't ready for me. But I can't wait for you my lifetime. Cause it is unfair and I wonder if you're really worth the wait. Sometimes I told myself that you're pretty much a very good catch. But I can't let you have it your way all the time, I want to know how much I mean to you. I want to know if I'm worth the chase. By merely telling me wasn't enough for me to know my worth. I need that adrenaline rush, I need that humility. And you ain't showing any of those signs.

To: boy #3
Hey darling, things between us have been rather awkward. There's so many things I hope I can tell you, but the barriers and distractions around us are way too much for us to spend time together. I feel awful for not knowing what to say upon seeing how screwed up you are. I'm really lost for words, and feel so inadequate and helpless, cause I can't walk this path with you. It is as if I left you behind, and you have to scramble by yourself. Yet, I feel that ache. Maybe the special bond between us was just a misleading path. We are just meant to be buddies. Maybe we both carried out a lil too far, and it's time we get back to where we meant to be.


P.S: Special & dear in your very own ways.
P.P.S: I love you. **************** I can't sleep despite being under several medications.
I'm bloody affected by the release of the Promotional results. That feeling sucks knowing that you'll move on, leaving a few people behind. I don't know how to tell 'someone' that it's all gonna be alright, cos I know it isn't. This is one occasion that you have no idea what to say or do to make 'someone' feel better. All I can say is, I'll be here for you all the way.



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11/11

MAKE A WISH.

It's eleventh november. 11/11
And I made a few wishes...
I wish, for daddy & mommy to get back.
I wish, situation at home to get better.
I wish, for special someone.
I wish, you forgive.
I wish, to truly love once again.

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Had lotsa fun with my classmates. 'Kewl' gang of people to hang out with! I love the black, the white, the minahz and the lianz. HAHA.

entourage.

Learn to love, back to basics.

**************** hey girls ! Sweet seventeennnn! I hope your special days are filled with much joy laughter love. One more year to eighteen! That will spell freedom ! (haha, we'll do naughty things together!)

SHANICE DEAR, we used to bicker alot during secondary sch days. but somehow we learn to tolerate with each other alot tis yr. Probably because we see each other less often. We should really meet up more often. love you sweetheart. study hard !

abcdefghappy !

happy seventeen girls. love you all.

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